Truth is, I'm terrified of everything. Past, Present and Future in a sense. I'll always have that thought lingering in my mind with whether I'll ever genuinely be happy by myself, i was before but it's getting myself back to where I came from. And now I know that all these thoughts are full of dissapointment and I've been psychologically mind set on the fact I needed some who generally told me I was beautiful and perfect and mehh, i believed it, now I stare lies, denial and dissapointment in the face. Forever is never, look past it while you can. Past all that, happiness is somewhere, seek it. :)

bite me

i look back at everything. i look back at my ex's and laugh.
cause' in comparisons they are nothing compared to this figure of my imagination. mmmm<33

read the book, you may regret it if you don't.

Twilight---new moon---eclipse---breaking dawn (:

it gets a bit too much sometimes

crazy, but their like family i guess

they do drivee me insane a bit, but they also keep me sane. take things off my mind.

thats fam bruv :)

what is the white stuff on the ground

it's really a beautiful thing snow ya know, and my favourite week of 2009 so far i reckon.

iggloos, a million snow balls in my face and the constant numbing in all in the catalogue. given me summit to talk about.

we rolled this all the way up broad town hill, gave up after 4mins due to cravings for hot chocolate and the warm fire =/

but we did have this. yes i am the other half of the snowman. man i ass was sooooooooooooooooo cold, i set a bit of a contrast, what d'ya think? let me know. i make such a good snowwoman though, even Trish my landlady said so. so there :)

Things I think you should get use to.

1. I use to change, modify myself to mould myself into something i wasn't and now i'm learning.

2. I would love to bee bar far, the most incredible top selling journalist this generation will ever see, something you could possibly tell your children?

3. i can't wait for that final day of school where i leavee a think 'fuck you but thanks'

4. i wanna go somewheree ridicolously hot. thats as far as i've thought. any cold wet horrible thing sends me into an overdrive of depression.

5. i like my eyes. they're green. i havee naturally sandy blonde hair, i decide to dye it, my hair doesn't like it much, due to it's bad condition. i'm about 5.4' apparently thats the height of a midget but whoever made that statement up can go do one. narrow minded so n' so.

6. i am a little bit obsessed with robert pattinson, milo ventigima, and a few others. a bit spesh i guess.

7. i swear i'm madee of milkshakes and ice-cream, yeeee i rule.

8. i lost someonee very special to me. after a year of some incredible speechless memories i'll never forget. i want to forget but my heart says no, damn you.

9. when you feel your heart won't heal, don't try and pick up the pieces by hand. the shards will hurt, watch for them to fadee.

10. timee, music and a lifee supply of ben n jerry's is on the horizon, thats what a rebounds for right?

11. my colour is greeen, teal. to match my eyes, but my eyes aren't teal, i'll fetch a teal felt tip.

12. i want to create beauty for everyone to see, not just with their eyes.

13. i will never fall in love again. the pain just isn't worth it

14. people just aren't my thing